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Truthful Tellings : When did society start to be so shitty?

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Truthful Tellings : When did society start to be so shitty?

Why has society changed ?
When did someone else's life become less important then you.
And not even just your life , your destination whether it be the grocery store , work or an appointment is that more important to you then someone's life . Now what if it was your grandmother's life, your child's or even your own?

I watched disaster happen before my eyes today I was on the highway and watched a truck lose control into the median and then spin and go back across the highway and into the trees. I was on the other side slammed on my breaks and called 911 and made my way over. 30+ cars passed that truck in the trees before I could get to him. I got as far off the highway as I could and put my hazards on . Even though I was terrified leaving my baby in the back of the car, I ran. In the rain into a mud pit and down to the truck ripping the door open I was lucky to find a shooken up but okay older man. He dozed off--does that matter no what matters is he was okay no broken bones no real damage. He was okay. Do you know cars kept passing I'm answering all the questions while running back to my baby and making sure he's okay terrified someone will hit my car with him in it and no one else had a moment of time except a guy maybe 18-19 pulled up behind me ran to help the old man helped him find his phone checked him again to make sure he was okay, checked the truck to make sure there wasn't any fluids leaking. So this generation mine and the next we're the only ones to stop and make sure this man wasn't dead or severely injured. The generation everyone thinks is worthless? Yet we were the ones who stopped? Did either of us know much about saving someones life or really what to do if he had been seriously hurt? No. But were we going to do everything we could in that moment? Yes.
I waited there 25 minutes (with a screaming baby in the back) til law enforcement came to help. Did I "have the time". Yes yes I did. Is that what I wanted to spend my time doing? Not particularly...but if that had been my grandfather my dad, me... I hope to God someone would stop and it literally tears me apart that all those people passed with not a care in the world for that other person's life just worried about getting to their destination on time. Maybe it's cause I was raised by a firefighter or maybe cause I'm married to a cop. But you treat anyone as if their family in moments of disaster. Joe said to me, you saved a life and really I didn't but the thing is I could have. It could have been that bad, and all those people passing for all they knew that driver could have been dying. How do you live knowing that. I didn't even think I just did I reacted I did what I hope if I'm ever in that place someone will do for me.

Now I'm off to mope cause I'm disappointed in humanity more than usual and I'm just not sure when things got this bad. When people become this selfish. 
God I hope I can raise my son to be a person who stops to help, who thinks of others. who puts others before his own selfish needs. I hope my kid cares, I hope he watches his father & I and learns that it doesn't matter who what when it just matters that in that moment you care.

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11 months Little : Phoenix Aion

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11 months Little : Phoenix Aion

As I pack my bags to leave my little man for the first time over night I celebrate him existing in this world for 11 months. For being my reason to smile & laugh so much everyday. 
11 months have flew by and I really can't believe it . I already want to go back in time. 

MILESTONES
Touch number 7 has cracked the surface and shown its face
he walks around the whole house now no holding him back at all!
He LOVES anything in a tumbler but specifically my herbalife shakes
he says dada and Hi and bye while waving.
He sleeps through the night more often then not & I still wake up and check on him anyway
Blueberries & avacados are still his favorite
he loves to sweep its the cutest!
He hasn't had a bottle since he was 10 months old and hes done amazing transitioning
He tells lots of stories & loves to hear people read to him! He even brings you the book!
He LOVES to sing & dance especially with mom.
He still hates the car with a passion. So thats fun!

His measurements are yet to be done but I'm sure hes gotten lots more chunky and gained an inch or two! 
 

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True Love isn't always pretty : Truthful Thursdays on a Friday cause that is life...

I get a lot, I hope I find a love like you & Joe.
You guys are perfect. 

Well Thanks but seriously. BLAH. 
I do love the man more than anything but really, nothing is perfect. 
It just takes work. & lots of it. Compromise & conversations not arguements. 
Talk people you'll realize most problems can be fixed that way. 
It's giving up things you may want so they can have things they want. 
It's knowing that sometimes someone has to lose, & being okay with that someone being you.
Not just in the arguements that do happen but in opportunities throughout life & obstacles.
It's you making coffee & them pouring it.
It's knowing that you are their Forever & ever & they are your ever & ever. It's the little things, so cliche but really.
If I had one piece of advice, it would be when given the choice of you or them if you aren't always choosing them, you are doing it wrong. With the right person, they are always choosing you too and it just equals out. You love one another so much choosing yourself doesn't seem like an option. It's beautifully terrifying. 
The Highs don't seem so high til you look back on them and the lows always seem lower when you are in them, but they each matter and will all make your relationship better.
When things are hard & days are long, take time.
We cherish our morning coffee together as we feed Phoenix breakfast.
We cherish the 20-30 minutes of reading in bed together before we go to sleep.
We cherish the snuggles while we sleeping & lets be truthful , the amazing sex
HAVE SEX people. Its good for your health and your marraige & stop being weird about it.

Most of all stop trying to be other people. The "perfect" couples you see , all have their own issues. Because all relationships do. Life is fucking hard and having someone with you is amazing but guess what? It's still hard so don't expect shit to be easy and there to be no obstacles cause you are day dreaming and it won't get you far in your relationship or in life.
& that is that for my first Truthful Thursdays!
 

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Happy 10 months Phoenix Aion

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Happy 10 months Phoenix Aion

Milestones!
I started walking on January 7th 2018 - Though I only do it when I want to
I learned how to climb,moving my toys to things to  climb them
I have 6 teeth! with the cutest gap everrrrrrr!
I am shoved up mommy's butt
I LOVE avacados more than anything though french toast sticks are life!
I haven't found a food I don't like yet
I spend lots of time playing in my room with the family!
I STILL can't say dada , though I shake my head no, say uh uhh, mhmmm and yell at the dogs.
I LOVE bath time but hate clothes
My best friend is the broom.... I take it everywhere.

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OUR SNOW DAY!

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OUR SNOW DAY!

Phoenix woke with wonder at the sight of snow of the ground outside! It was absolutely adorable! But once bundled up & outside I think the cold out weighed the wonder though he did crawl around , bounce up and down in it and of course... Eat it. 
We only stayed out for 5 minutes! No need for a cold sick baby in this house and he was done with the cold so inside we went  soaked from sitting in snow and rolling around for photos. Well him & I of course Joe was snug, Dry and warm as he wasn't about sitting in the snow hah! 
I am so happy that Phoenix's First year has been so amazing and hes been able to experience such things ! We almost never get snow so for him to be able to see it and play in it , it was pretty awesome!

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Day 22 of Christmas with Phoenix ! The days are coming to an end

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Day 22 of Christmas with Phoenix ! The days are coming to an end

Simple & Sweet
Our version of Christmas decorating is very natural. Greenery and lights to accent our home which is full of handmade wood furniture and floors. The simpleness of day 22 definitely matches our Christmas style here at home.

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